Emptiness

As I walked down the path I chose,

Around me the dust of my past rose

Thousands of pairs of eyes, I see,

        are following as though seeing right through me.

I cower, cover and break into a run

Jeering eyes follow, drawing out of my misery, twisted fun

The gaping hole inside me is now so pronounced,

My masks fade as darkness creeps up unannounced.

My tears have dried and my patience tried

as I grope,

in the darkness for a tiny speck of hope...

Love

The sparkle in his eyes,
Or the sweet lies,
I don't know what did it.

Was it the way he made me feel,
Or how fast he made the old wounds heal.
I don't know what did it.

The way he grabs and swings me around,
Or calls me up, just to hear my sound.
I don't know what did it.

The way he behaves silly, to make me laugh,
Or how generously he splits, his favorite chocolate cake in half.
I don't know what did it.

What is do remember is the way he stole my heart,
With just one look.
I could not break apart,
It held me like a hook.
That moment I knew,
I was in love.


PS: Not exactly poetry - I'm still trying to get back in form :)

pic courtsey - librarian.net

Departed

I awoke from my trance

Looking down, I saw me

Peaceful smile on my face

Saw tears from my friends

They took me like in a daze

I realized, I was the soul

Looking at an empty shell

I took with me, the wisdom

Imparted over many years

Leaving with some tears

A body that served so well

Why did I have to live?

I left behind a sad song

Why did I make friends?

When at this final end

Their tears I took along

Is this where we belong?

It makes me wonder so

Poised we are at the end

To be forgotten forever

An escape from the pain

It makes me wonder

Is death a choice?

For OSI


PS: Sorry for missing the Sunday.
PPS: Posted by Leo for Priya

Day 2 - The Moonlight Jive

A soft whisper stirred my nice reverie.

"Come, look out the window and see"

Welcomed, by soft kisses of the breeze,

I watched happily, the swaying of trees.

"Look up", came the soft whisper again,

Pearlish moon was smiling for me to see,

Many stars twinkling above like a crown,

A silent melody played softly just for me.

It gave me hope, took away all my fears,

It lightened the pain I had all these years.

"I've missed so much, of beauty in life"

I let go of past. joined the moonlight jive.

PS: Childish as it may sound.. I felt extremely good writing it :)

PPS: Belated thanks (:P) to HaRy for the follow :)

Gallows Of Love

The virtue of love, I did learn from you,

But with that intoxication came pain

Why do I have to suffer, in agony again?

In happiness all the pain I did accept.

For you, is this where love & hate intersect?

Ripped from its shell, it is you my soul follows,

Why was it you, who sent it to the gallows.

Day 4 & 3 - Fever spoils the fun... Diary comes to the rescue

Down with fever :( Guess my sis saabam-uttufied pretty bad. My brain wouldn't do any thinking and I could not stay away from blogging... My diary came to rescue. I unearthed another one of my favorite poems. This is one is fairly recent...

Masks

True colours fade,

Hidden under the veneer of falsity.

Take me away from underneath,

Before in there I jade...

To her I'm happy,

Strong willed and fiery.

To him I'm shy,

sad, yet smiling and fluttery.

Beneath my happiness,

Are tears.

And the pretence of courage,

Wrap my fears.

Take me away,

From under this Mask.

For if this is what it takes to be human,

It is not in a dark limelight, I wish to bask.

PPPS: Thanks Arunima for the follow :)

Elusive...

Your silence speaks to me more than your words...

the pauses are not awkward, but moments of deep understanding...

Is this silence going to rule.. or will there be a time

When i get to hear what my heart longs for...

The sound that keeps my spirits alive..

the waves that give me the strength to go on...

Remember , that every time you are silent , the absence of the vibrations,

is pulling at my life strings....

Speak.. for it keeps me alive....

Give me an answer, why is it to you my heart is glued?

Speak.. why is it only me you elude?

Day 9 - I wont' let go

I won't let go, but I need to.
I dont want to cry
That means I'm weak
I've lost too many things ..
I've cried many a tears.
But nothing i did or said brought any of them back
Tears are simply not the answers I seek.
Tell me what to do, Guide me the way.
Under this mask of falsity, I do not wish to stay.
Take me away, I beg of thee.
For everything around me has reduced to nothing but debris.

Day 10 - Call of Death

I opened my eyes to darkness...

Everything was still. Everything was silent, except for the faint sound of the wind outside.
Time wrapped her hands around my neck. I struggled to breathe, I fought the suffocation. The pain vanished. Darkness prevailed and I lapsed into a trance....

I opened my eyes to light...
A pair of eyes looked at me.
Such warmth in them, such fathoms deep love.
And those tears in them looked so beautiful. They were smiling and cring at the same time. I smiled back.
Rush of light... More eyes, more smiles... none felt familiar. I started to cry. Warmth found me again. "Hush", ma said, and hush I did. I closed my eyes, falling back into a stupor....

I opened my eyes to darkness...
Time was waiting, to apparate me to another place... I felt a slight push. I felt something boiling inside me. I felt rebellion. I felt black.

I opened my eyes to light...
The same eyes again. Not holding me but watching me. Fathoms deep love still present. I saw hurt this time. Tears but smiles were still there... So sad, yet so beautiful. I felt heavy with guilt. "You are growing up. You need space too.", ma said. I avoided the eyes. Heavier than before, I happily let time choke me again.

I opened my eyes to darkness...
Time was still there, rushing me off to another dimension. This time, pain seared through my body.. I tried to scream, the agony unbearable... I passed out again...

I opened my eyes to light...
White light... Pain persisted. Unable to move I cried out silently. The eyes again. Hurt, fear, happiness, relief and anger flashed all at the same time. The eyes softened. "You are a brave girl. And you are all better now. Rest now love", ma said. Hands of time carressed me, as I blacked out again.

I opened my eyes to darkness...
Sweating, scared and confused. I called out. I called out again...
Light killed the darkness, blinding me.
I cried, and hands grabbed me gently...
I opened my eyes, to those eyes.
Fear, concern and confusion evident in them. I cried even more, falling into her arms...
"Hush", ma said. And hush I did. I closed my eyes to the warmth of death….

Conquer...

"Which way do I take?", I wonder
Standing at cross-roads.
My mind is shadowed with images of failure,
And my heart with fear.

Unseen hands caressed me,
And made me feel, what I could not see.
Images of success filled my mind.
My heart filled with joy, which till then was hollow.

"Conquer you mind", a voice said, "And everything postive will follow".


PS: If anyone is to blame , its Leo. He is inficting me upon poetry. He was vowed to find the poet in me, so dear readers, bear with him. (And me ofcourse) :D

Not meant to be...

You made me happy, you made me glow.
You were more than a friend to me.
I knew deep down,
For the rest of my life, it was with you I wanted to be.

Into the starry nights, with you I gazed.
You made me glitter, you made me sway.
The ground gave away and I fell,
In loneliness, I now dwell.
Why?
Please tell me why, to her,
I had to give you away.

Will the void be ever filled?
Will I get an answer for every tear I have spilled?

ME | EM !

Words buzzed in my ears.
They were all talking, and I was in tears.
"I love you", whispered one voice near me.
"We are all there for you, don't you see?".
"To wipe your tears", said another,
"And to help you face your fears".

I smiled and turned around,
To see more reflections of myself, In the hall of Mirrors,
And slowly, the voices in my head die down.


PS: Rhyming ramble. Forgive me :) and Title suggestions are welcome :)
PPS: Title courtsey - Srivatsan.. Thanks dude!